Burning Man Redux (Part 3)

September 19, 2010


(continued from Part 2)….


In the default world, we’re in a trance. We move in lock step to each destination.. work, gym, store, home.  And when driving in between them, we’re anywhere but here as our minds wander into whatever fantasy or fear is in our thoughts.


Now imagine if someone interrupts that trance… when a stranger walks up to you and starts talking to you.   Suddenly we go into fear… “Who is this person and what do they want?  Now I might be late to dinner. I gotta get outta here!” …and back into that safe trance. 

But what if you knew it was all a dream? What if you knew that you’ll be waking up to your warm cozy bed later?  Well that would mean you could simply explore, learn, play, have fun.  Nothing really matters, so there’s plenty of time to just enjoy the moment. 

This is what it’s like to wake up within a dream and know you’re dreaming.  So back to Burning Man and the Advanced Dreaming Class. 

How to Wake up in a Dream, and Take Control




Ever wonder why you could dream a pink elephant walks by singing Michael Jackson and you never think to yourself, “This is really weird. Maybe I’m dreaming.”  It’s because despite the circumstances, you’re still in a trance. You’re still in the same state of mind as you are in the real world, which accepts everything at face value.  So the only way to really notice you’re dreaming is if you start to question the real world.

You’re reading my blog post right now in the real world.  Are you sure you’re not dreaming?



The Reality Check


Here’s how you question reality throughout your day:

  1. Stop for a moment and look around for a number (it’s easiest if you have a digital watch).
  2. Look away.
  3. Look back at the number.

If you’re in the real world, it will stay the same.  If you’re in the dream world, it will change to another number, or perhaps change shape, or color, or turn into a muppet. Who knows. But it certainly won’t be the same. (Note: It’s important that you only use numbers. I’ve tried this with words and it does not work as well).



If you do this several times a day, you will start to do it when you’re dreaming. And it’s like receiving a message from yourself to wake up within the dream. Once you do, it’s like the holodeck on Star Trek. It all feels totally real, and yet you can do anything you want!


Ground Yourself in the Dream


Before you go flying, or talk to God, or whatever it is you want to do, it’s very important to ground yourself in the dream world.  There is such a rush of excitement when you realize you’re dreaming that it’s easy to go into emotional overload and quickly wake up.  The most advanced lucid dreamers are very good at tempering their emotions.


To ground yourself, pay attention to all your senses. What are you hearing, seeing, smelling?  Look at your hands to connect with your body in this world. Take a moment to breathe.  This will help extend your dream time.




You can do whatever you’d like at this point, but here are a few interesting points that came from the Advanced class:


1. Nightmares and Dream enemies


These are often people who have a message for you. They represent something you’ve pushed out of your conscious. You might try asking them what they mean. Or give them unconditional love (Note: I tried this technique after Burning Man.  My enemy turned into a child crying, but I couldn’t get him to tell me what he signified. Ah the power of repressed thought!)


2. Bring dreams into your reality


To become more aware, try telling people about your dreams.  It’s important for you to be able to remember your dreams before you can try all of this. If you can’t remember your dreams, set your alarm clock to 4am, when you’re very likely to be in an REM state.  Wake up, write down your dream and go back to bed. (Note: I like to record mine on the voice recorder of my iphone)


3. Supplements


There are supplements you can take such as Huperzine-A, Mugwort and Galantamine.  There is a book all about this, as well as Tim Ferriss’ blog post below.  Note that while these supplements are very safe, there may also be a downside to long-term use, as very experienced lucid dreamers have said that it can reduce your number of lucid dreams once you go off of it.

Best Resources for Further Exploration:




Best Book on the Subject:  Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming
Tim Ferriss’s blog post


I believe this is one of the best skills you can possibly learn, because you’ll be dreaming your whole life.  In fact, I’ve begun to wonder… perhaps this entire world we’re in now is “one level deep” to quote Inception.  Perhaps each earth life time we have is like one day in our lives as a soul.  So when we die, we go back to the real world for awhile, and then dream into another life.


The Red Pill is real.

I got this email last week:


“Thanks for the playa gift! I’ve tried it several times and prescribed it to other folks, and it really works!
A friend of mine may be emailing you to obtain his own “prescription.”


After the dream class, I gave away 10 bottles, and 10 more people wanted them so they followed me back to camp to get their own.


Do you want your own? Email me your address. I have 10 left.


The Ski Party.


That night I waited for my camp to get ready to go out.  This can take hours, easy.  It’s herding cats in the real world, but add all the confusion of camping, dressing in the dark, creating crazy costumes, and hooking lights up to your outfit.


As I waited, I heard the most amazing music in the distance. It was a combination of bands like INXS with amazing break beats mixed in.  Upon hearing the happy vibe, I got up and left the group to go out on my own…


I walked into a huge geodesic dome to an Apres ski party!






There was snow falling, everyone was in ski outfits, and I don’t know how to explain this but it felt like we all knew each other.

Next time:The utopian French Cafe, Costco Soulmate Trading Outlet, and Mental Foreplay.

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Burning Man Redux (Part 2)

September 12, 2010



In the last episode, I took the red pill before going to bed, with the intention to know reality. And by the morning I knew it.


Now I before I tell you what it is, I just want to define what I meant by “reality” when I created these intention-setting placebo pills. The “reality” is what’s in your unconscious that you may have ignored, repressed, denied or simply forgotten.  By denying that true reality, we spend our time chasing something that we think will bring us happiness. The most basic example would be a man in the conquest of many women when he has denied the reality that he wants a truly deep connection. But it can be much more subtle and nuanced.


For me, I wanted Burning Man to be about service and presence. What I did not realize was that I chose those two because I thought they would give me something much deeper. Something I never would have accepted straight-on. But after taking the red pill, I woke up and it hit me, first as an emotion and then I put it to words…

The Realization

“Oh my God,” I said. “I want to be present and in service, because that allows me to love myself.”


It suddenly felt like the meaning behind my whole year was unfolding, like in “The Sixth Sense” when Bruce Willis realizes he’s a ghost. There were so many signs along the way, and yet something in me denied it.  Something in me said there is so much I have to do before I can earn that respect of myself. And I could see how much pain that belief caused me, and how many people I pushed away (even as they tried to reveal this to me). It was the core behind a mantra in my mind that had always said, “I’m not there yet.”


Now this is one half of what the pill is about.

I actually include about 20 pills in each gift, because accepting one’s own reality is not always easy. There’s a reason we push it down, and acknowledging it brings up a deep discomfort that can make for a bad trip.


So that’s why I included these instructions with it:


Take your daily Red Pill.


I’ve found that this exercise can change one’s entire view on life.  Taking the pill with this exercise makes it into even more of a ritual. I discovered how powerful ritual can be later in the trip. (In part 5 I’ll tell you about the “Emotional Equalizer” device I created).


From then on I would carry the pills with me, and what’s amazing about Burning Man is everyone not only understood it immediately, they believed it immediately. Some people grabbed it out of my hands before I was even done explaining it. Some people pushed it away in fear. Others said it was exactly what they were looking for.  Especially the people at the next class I went to:

Inception: The Class


There was a two-part series on how to lucid dream. Much like the movie Inception, this is where you become fully aware that you’re dreaming, and have the power to alter your dream, as well as do fun things like break the laws of physics.

I have been lucid dreaming for awhile now, but I only have a few a year and they tend to be short.  Also, the field has been evolving.  In a recent book on lucid dreaming, Robert Waggoner describes how they can be used for personal transformation.  Rather than simply controlling the dream, one can speak directly to the dream and ask its meaning. This means instant interpretation rather than trying to find out the meaning later, and dealing with dream dictionaries.

This was an advanced class, attended by a continental congress of highly skilled dreamers.


The Difference Between Dream World and “Default World.”

We started with a talk on what exactly is the difference between the dream world and the “default world.”  There were about 40 different explanations.  Here’s mine:

Past, present and future are an illusion in this world we call reality. To get this, imagine that your life is a movie, much like a DVD on your shelf. There’s a beginning, middle and end to the story, and yet the whole thing exists in its entirety.


If you imagine that movie as a reel of film, you can imagine that your life already exists, but YOU are the light coming through the projector, watching it all unfold.


Now imagine you and I are together, talking at a coffee shop. You have your projector on, and I have mine. And each of our films is crossing over and overlapping.  We both believe we are each seeing the same reality, but our films are actually different.  The visual scene looks the same (or not, since I can’t see through your eyes), but the meaning, story, and emotions are all different.  Almost like it’s the same scene with two different soundtracks.


Reality is a beautiful interweaving of many films, all crossing over each other, surrounded by the blinding light from billions of projectors.

Now, to define the dream world…



When we dream, the fim is paused, and we go to a place where all those proverbial projectors are housed. To extend the analogy, it’s more like the editing room floor where we can combine various scenes of our memory, look ahead to future ones, as well as meet other voyagers. (And yes, I mean that dream characters can actually be real people).

I’ve come to believe that Burning Man is the only place I know that sits in space and time between these two worlds. It’s a realm that’s completely created from nothing. A world where intention becomes reality within days, expectations are shattered on an hourly basis, and each moment is filled with the pure peace (or terrible terror) of knowing we are completely free.

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Burning Man Redux (Part 1)

September 8, 2010




Many people say you cannot describe Burning Man.  That it’s impossible to know without experiencing it. And it’s true, because each person’s experience is so completely different and somehow magically perfect.  But let me do my best to bring you in…


Burning Man is where a totally barren desert (imagine the flat brown lands where they break the land speed record)…is transformed into a city of 50,000 people:




But before we go into the city, let’s take a step back…


Burning Man is an “experiment in temporary community” where people gather to live in radical self-reliance (all they provide are porta-potties). People live life as art, completely expressing themselves as living performances through music, dance, installations, and experiments.



It’s a Gift Economy.


Aside from ice and coffee, there is no money exchanged. Everything is a gift. And that’s why this journey starts way before you get to the desert…


People spend all year preparing their gifts. This year I saw huge statues, A 90-foot yacht on wheels with a roving dance party, an entire french cafe bistro, a human car wash, several kissing booths, and the “bad idea theater.”   These are a few among thousands.


But the gifts don’t have to be so complex. Some people spend hours spraying a fine mist over the hot desert wanderers. Others give massages or hand out bacon. And it gets more random than that.  My first year I created the NOW watch, a watch with no ability to tell time, but simply had the word NOW with funky colors and a glitter gloss. I love experimenting with my own fascinations… I was blown away that you cannot even buy a watch that cannot tell time but just says NOW.  (There’s a good legal reason for that, which I eventually found out the hard way. It’s a long, sad story).


This year, I became obsessed with another item of contraband…


The Red Pill.


Did you know that it’s pretty much illegal to sell placebos?  There have been studies documenting how powerful an inert pill can be. They can even outperform anti-depressants. But go ahead and try to buy a placebo. You can’t!    But since Burning Man is a gift economy, I could create a placebo to give rather than sell.  And that’s what I did. I created the most powerful placebo I know…




In the Matrix, Neo is offered the choice of the Red Pill or the Blue Pill.  Taking the red pill signifies the desire to see what is truly real. As Morpheus says, “I offer the truth, nothing more.” The blue pill allows Neo to go back to the Matrix, the falsely constructed reality.


So I created my own Red Pill…




I ordered real pharmaceutical bottles, printed up labels, glossed them over with Mod Podge, and filled them with Red Tic Tacs.  Cute? Maybe. But that’s not what happens when you put the full intention on them and take them to Burning Man.


I created an invocation to use them:
“I want to know the true reality.”
“I accept reality.”
“I love reality.”


And it was more powerful than I imagined. But we’ll get to that later.  Let’s get back to the story….


The Preparation.


As I said, all they provide are porta-potties, so you have to bring everything you could possibly need.  At a bare minimum that includes dust masks, goggles, gallons of water, food, shelter, etc.   I had planned to go with my girlfriend in an RV to her previous camp but we broke up two weeks before the event.  That’s another story for another time, but for those who know both of us, I’ll say that I’m a very lucky man to have been with such a radiant goddess for so long.


So I quickly had to find other arrangements.  While it’s possible to simply throw some stuff together and get out there, I don’t recommend it.  It could easily turn into “Harold and Kumar go to Burning Man.”  Luckily my friend, known as Princess Jedi had teamed up with a group of Google people called Suburbia and they welcomed us into their camp. We had a beautiful yard, picket fence, stove, couches and shade.  I consider it vital to have a good home there. Reality is so strange that one can easily feel completely alone.


This year I created an entire spreadsheet, with items, costumes, gifts, and camps to see. Color coding to show what I had, what I needed, and what was in progress.






We all have intentions. But some of us get really conscious about them. It’s easy to slip into the base desires – sex, drugs, adventure, etc. And there’s nothing wrong with that if it’s truly what you want. But often, we want something deeper that we think those things will bring us.


My intention was twofold:


1) Service – On my first trip I realized how fun it is to give. If you’ve got great gifts you can really light up people’s day.


2) Presence – It’s so easy to go into what they call “FOMO” Fear of Missing Out.  There’s so much going on that you often think, “I wonder what’s better than I could be doing?” And you start to worry that you’re missing something amazing.  But I find that when I imagine that where I am is the only place in existence, then time disappears and I feel connected to everyone and everything.




Getting there was relatively easy for me. I flew into Reno. PJ picked me up after she picked up all the food supplies, and we drove for 2 hours east.   We set up camp rather easily, but a storm was brewing.  I somehow had a vision of this before we left.


Just as we had our tents up it started to pour.  And then something ridiculous happened…


A double rainbow:




People all over jumped out and said, “Oh my God! Double rainbow, what does it mean???” If you don’t get the reference, you must watch this video, as well as this parody.


Into the Unknown.


My first time I regretted that I had never gone deep into the desert, so this time it was the first thing I did.  And I found something amazing… It’s called the Starfuckers Oasis (a pun on Starbucks) and it’s a coffee shop oasis in the middle of nowhere, where they served us frozen lattes:



I had incredible conversations there for hours.


When I went to bed that night, I decided to take the red pill for myself.  I had to know it before I could give it to anyone else. When I woke up the next day, reality hit me very quickly…


All of the sudden I knew the real reason I was at Burning Man.


(to be continued in Part 2)

Why we don’t like commitment

August 10, 2010


“He can’t handle commitment.”
“I’m not ready to commit.”
“She’s commitment-phobic.”


Ever heard any of these?


Think about this for a moment… Perhaps there’s not a problem with the person. Perhaps there’s a problem with the word…


Have you ever said to yourself, “I am so depressed.”?
This statement literally says you equals depressed. They are one and the same. It’s as if your identity is the depression. It would be much more accurate to say “I feel so depressed.”  It would be even more accurate to say, “I feel what I am labeling depression.”


The word “depression” has a tremendous amount of baggage to it, from social taboo, to a clinical state of incapacitation.  And yet we use it so liberally!


A friend of mine once heard me say I was depressed and asked me to consider a different word. He said, “Try saying, ‘I’m in a dark night right now.'”  I said it and immediately my view shifted as I could see the state as temporary (since night always passes into day) and I could find the art and poetry of being in the shadows, where perhaps I could find something hidden and interesting about myself.  It was a total turnaround.


So back to the idea of commitment…


What if we replaced that word with devotion?


I was struck by this word when my former girlfriend told me how she thought Thievery Corporations’ Radio Retaliation is a very devotional album. I thought, Wow – it’s such a beautiful word.  So I looked it up. Here’s the definition:




  • profound dedication; consecration. 
  • earnest attachment to a cause, person, etc.
  • an assignment or appropriation to any purpose, cause, etc.
  •    religious observance or worship; a form of prayer or worship for special use.

Now look at that in contrast to a few definitions from this word:



  • a pledge or promise; obligation: We have made a commitment to pay our bills on time.
  • perpetration or commission, as of a crime.
  • consignment, as to prison.
  • confinement to a mental institution or hospital: The psychiatrist recommended commitment.
  • an order, as by a court or judge, confining a person to a mental institution or hospital.


“Devotion” is a deeply motivated choice. “Commitment” is an obligation or a prison. 

Is it any wonder so many of us shy away from “commitment”? 

The Divine Insanity of Noble Minds

March 3, 2010



The divine insanity of noble minds,

that never falters nor abates,

but labors, endures, and waits,

till all that it foresees it finds,

or what it cannot find, creates.



I promise myself…

January 30, 2010


To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.


To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.


To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.


To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.


To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.


To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.


To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.


To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.


To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.


To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.


To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.


To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.


-Christian D. Larson, 1912